This is probably the start of my food/dieting issues…
20th Feb 1999
It’s not even 2pm yet and already I have drank a litre and a half of water. I’m doing well. I am really going to lose weight, even if I have to live on celery and water for the rest of my life. And I also need to get fitter, especially if I want to take acting seriously. My agent, Shane, told me if I was an actor I’d have to work out 3 times a week and drink a litre and a half of water a day, I’ll go down to Mary’s and use her cross trainer today maybe too. It tells you how many calories you burn! I am 8 and a half stone and I want to get down to 7 and a half stone in the next two months. I pray to God that I’ll reach this weight. Maybe I’ll phone a doctor or something and ask him what’s the quickest way of losing weight. Well, a stone in 2 months. I don’t want to starve myself like! But I’ll do anything it takes. Maybe. Depending on mum etc, I might try to get down to 7 stone. I say depending on mum because she will bug me if she notices I’ve lost too much weight. But she shouldn’t cause Amy-Lee is really skinny. Well, not REALLY but she is very slim and it’s not fair. But I want this more than anything. Every time I see a single star or anything you can wish on, I’ll wish to be 7 stone, but if I get to 7 and a half stone I will be happy. The only thing is, my clothes will be too big, but who cares?! I’ll be thin. It looks cool when your clothes are too big cos you’re thin anyway.
Flip sake! It sounds like I’ll give myself an eating disorder, but I won’t! I won’t let myself go as skinny as Linda. She looks like she is 6 stone but she is just over 7 stone. But she is taller than me so there. Bye.
